I am spending very little time online these days. Time is fleeting as I count down the days until my final 10 weeks of school work and I am staying quite busy….working, playing, learning…. There are not words sufficient enough to describe how much I needed and am enjoying my current break. My capstone (thesis) course begins on Sunday, but I probably won’t check in and look at it until Monday.
During my break, I have accomplished a lot and have felt joyful and happier than usual, simply because I have so much to feel grateful for …and because I am so close to completing this monumental goal in my life. Things seem to be falling right into place in virtually every area of my life. However, I remain ever-mindful that I could lose it all in an instant. That is the nature of life……so I am enjoying what I have in the moment, and am feeling extraordinarily thankful.
Here are some of the things that make me feel so lucky:
#1. John – My husband is such a good person. He is a genuine blessing in my life. His play writing endeavors are getting a lot of positive attention and reviews. It makes my heart jump with joy to see him thriving in this way. He is happy, so I am happy. That’s how a good marriage works. His job is also going very well. He was just promoted and given a nice raise and a extended contract…AND, he will now be an exclusively online professor, meaning that he can work from anywhere in the world. He will be moving back home to Portland at the end of May, and I couldn’t be more thrilled. We have many adventures planned together. While we have settled into our separate routines in separate cities over the last five-ish years, with him coming home during holidays and over the summer, we have always wanted to be permanently reunited. This will be a dream come true for us both. This will also give me the opportunity to take care of him better…diet, exercise…tender loving care.
#2. Art – I am on a roll with my art, becoming more inspired each day, learning new skills, trying new techniques. Just this morning, I finished a mixed media portrait of my best friend called, “Lightworker”. My head is constantly filled with art. Right now, I am taking one of Deryn Mentock’s fabulous jewelry making classes, but I am also designing a new mosaic fireplace surround for our house, working on a painting, doing a series of guitar-related art, working on a new tee shirt graphic and am generally living the art life. I love it. I set aside a number of hours every evening to focus upon and create new art.
#3. Music – Music, of course, is its own form of art, but I feel it deserves its own category. I am practicing my guitar each day and still taking lessons. Not getting very good, but am learning a lot. The main problem lies in the fact that despite being a keyboardist for the vast majority of my life, I do not have strong hands. I understand how to play guitar perfectly. My fingers, however, struggle. I am, again, taking the Berklee College of Music songwriting course, and I will probably enroll in it again and again. Even though the lessons are the same each session, I learn something new each time.
I am working on writing these country songs that are really coming together! I am also still attending jams on Sunday afternoons/evenings and am becoming deeply immersed into the Portland music scene. I am having fun, meeting a ton of great people and have found yet one more thing to be grateful about.
#4. Friendship – With each passing day, I am more thankful for my best friend and the energy, love and kindness that he bestows upon me. Two peas in a pod, we are, and demonstratively indestructible. He is a gift straight from heaven.
This is real love….real friendship, and I am grateful for it every minute of my life. It has its negative side, as all things do, but since I have learned to ignore that, I am better able to reap the benefits of the positive. I used to take the negative aspects into my heart and allow them to hurt me or worse, allow them to make me angry. Today? I can’t believe I ever allowed them to bother me. The positive is SO good, that it completely cancels out the negative. I simply ignore the fluff and embrace the substance. The love is substantial.
In addition to my bestie, I have other friends that enrich my life every day that I live it. My friends are exceptional people, individuals from whom I continue to laugh with and learn from. I am so fortunate to have these awesome, intelligent, remarkable people in my life. What a gift!
#5. Organization – I am becoming remarkably organized, purging things from my life, becoming more minimalist, materially, and less dependent on STUFF, as I become more dependent on living a rich, full and active life. I am sorting, adding shelves, tossing things out, donating things and really taking a new perspective on every THING that I own. Stuff is simply not that important to me any more. I find it easier and easier to let go.
#6. Adventure – I am trying new things a lot…going places I’ve never been, re-examining things that are familiar to me and seeing them through more appreciative eyes. I am studying things more….nutrition, geography, philosophy….and taking on new perspectives about virtually everything. I love trying new things and learning lessons about them.
#7. Simplicity – This one fits in closely with my binge toward organization. I am learning to simplify…physically, emotionally and in every way. If something is not working in my life, I have learned to simply move on with no regrets. This happened with a couple of members of my family that simply could not be happy with anything I did in my life. Therefore, I simply let them go and moved on happily, with no regrets and no negativity. It’s funny. I have let go of family members, but have not had to let go of any friends….but I will, if I need to. I just haven’t needed to. My friendships remain positive, probably because of the old adage that you can choose your friends, but not your family.
#8. Family – This is another category that should go higher on this list, in terms of priority…but I’m not writing these things in order of importance. I am writing them as I think of them. My family has taken some dramatic shifts over the last few years. I have grown very close to my mother and father.
I have grown closer to my cousins and have an Auntie that I feel very close to and thankful for. I have a new daughter-in-law with whom I am very close, and a new grandchild who delights me with each encounter. I love and appreciate my family here in Portland, and thrive on my encounters with little Ingrid. I have grown closer to my granddaughter, Maya, and embrace the idea that she will soon live here in the Pacific NW again. I admire her sense of adventure and love it that she is not afraid to make drastic changes and try new things. She is an adventurer of whom I am quite proud! I am one lucky woman and I know it! Exceptional bunch of people, my family…..at least some of them. 😉
#9. Finances – I am learning more and more about business, about how to manifest money….about how to work the system to my advantage so that I might help others. I’ve learned to make lists and to prioritize. It gives me such pleasure to share what I have and to make other people’s lives easier. Using my financial prowess to do good in the world is my ultimate goal. So far, so good.
#10 – LIFE – Life, in general, is good, but I never take it for granted. Rather than fear the future, I am grateful for what I have in the moment. I know there will be losses eventually, but I prefer not to focus on that and, instead, really live the life that I have, while I can, and to do as much as I possibly can with a big smile on my face. Life IS good!